Hypochondria and Microbiology

Hello, I am Lush Amazon. I have blogged for about a year now but have, for certain reasons, decided to close down my other blog and start a new one. What happened was that too many people I knew started reading, and I really don’t care usually but then feelings were hurt, and my blog was then threatened to be sent to my school (which they would not have approved of) so here I am, starting anew.

So I will start with a bit of an introduction: I (again) am Lush Amazon. I was born and raised in California but moved out to Utah to go to college after getting my associates degree when I was 17, my high school diploma at 16. My major was once chemistry, but then moving to this university inspired me to change my major to biochemistry, and then after two months in organic chemistry, I wanted to kill myself because I don’t want to work with something so static with my life. So I was left with two other options, Microbiology (which I fell in love with and still held my childhood dreams within its borders) and Sexology. Unfortunately for me, my university doesn’t offer a degree in sexology, and probably shouldn’t because who would take a sexologist seriously if he came from a school that denies the basic ideas of sexuality. So that is why I am now studying microbiology.

I classify myself as a hypochondriac, although that is not really the truth. What really is wrong with me is that as a child, I thought being neurotic was cool, so I forced myself into having what I thought was OCD, and this act in turn actually gave me OCPD. My personal obsession seems to be illness and I constantly search for possible diseases I might have. Last week, I was sitting on my couch and was extremely tired, so I went online and discovered that I could possibly be diabetic. Then through more research, I decided that I could be hypoglycemic instead. So I debated with myself for a few hours about what I could have and finally decided that statistically speaking, I might have CFIDS (Chronic Fatigue Immunodeficiency Syndrome). Not one second did I think that I could just be tired because I had a full day of schooling and I donated plasma for money which causes fatigue.